Thought-provoking questions and answers

I stumbled upon on a website on StumbleUpon (pun intended).  It's called 25 Beautifully Illustrated Thought-Provocative Questions. Check it out here. I am feeling kinda in a dep mood, so I wanna try to answer all or most of the questions.

1. How old would you be if you didn't know how old you are?
I would probably be 21 years old. Seems like a good age where you are not too young and not too old. At 21 I was still in my college life living it. Everything was planned out for me already, I just study and stuff. Life was just simple when I didn't have to deal with looking for apartments and full-time jobs. Also, at 21 you are legal everywhere in the world.

2. If you had the opportunity to get a message across to a large group of people, what would your message be? 
Just chill, yo! Seems like people these days get easily stressed. Well, no wonder why! Bills to pay, taking care of loved ones, school is stressful, work is stressful, some relationships don't work,.... It's like people are going 1000 miles per hour, always rushing and multi-tasking. For a normal adult these days, there is so much to worry about. If I could just tell people to chill, relax and not to fret over the little things in life and stop to smell the flowers. Life is much happier if one appreciates what one has at the moment. Having the go-go feeling just makes the person so stressed, hence angry, mad and mean. People usually take their anger on other people. Just not fair for other people cuz they have done nothing. Spend some time saying hi to neighbours, enjoy a nice walk out, spend a few minutes doing something silly.....and life is much much MUCH easier that way.

3. Is it possible to lie without saying a word?
Entirely possible. Nodding. Shaking head. Eyes looking away.

4. If not now, when then?
Not sure what this question refers to, but my answer to that question is: soon.

5. What would you do differently if you knew nobody would judge you?
I would dress however I want and what feels comfortable on me. Maybe wear sweatpants all day long no matter where I go. I would also use stuff with cartoons on them. I would also sing out loud in public. Additionally, I would say things as true as they are. I would tell somebody straight to their face that I don't like them.

6. Are you holding onto something that you need to let go off? 
Yes, my youthood. I am overwhelmed accepting the fact that I am an adult now and that I need to find a job asap and start earning money for my future. Also, personal things I don't feel like sharing online.

7. Have you done anything lately worth remembering?
Yes, trying to make my boyfriend's birthday memorable to make him happy and let him know how much he means to me.

8. When is it time to stop calculating Risks and Rewards, and just do what you know is right? 
I actually did that recently. Been hovering about something that I felt that wasn't right for me. Spent too much time calculating what happens if I id that, what happens if I don't, what am I gonna get out of it, etc. I finally decided to let it go, because I felt it was the right thing to do. My sister told me today that some things are not meant to be, and there will be signs when something is not meant to be. And that when you let that go, things get much easier, that's when you realize you have made a good decision. You just gotta listen to what your heart and conscience is telling you. Trust your insticts.

9. Do you think crying is sign of weakness or strenght? 
I think crying can be both weakness AND strenght. Most of the times we cry because we are vulnerable to something, most likely something that touches our hearts. Like the feeling of being loved, thinking about a deceased loved one, feeling defeated, feeling lost.... But it can also be strenght because nowadays crying seems to be, well, sign of weakness, and most people will hold not to cry, especially in public. But it takes courage and strenght to something that we feel and not because society has labelled crying as weakness.

10.  Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Tricky question. If you have morals, you wouldn't do anything unlawful. But then again, if you have morals, you do what you gotta do to save or defend someone you love like family or significant other. I guess it depends on the situation. My mind is split on this one.

11. When you're her age (picture of a very old woman), what would matter to you the most? 
 Having a family that loves you and cares for you. There is nothing that compares to the feeling of family getting together and spending time with each other. I woul love to have a husband by then with me by my side who will still love me like when he fell in love with me for the first time. Children who are married and have children. My grandchildren wanting to see me and spend time cooking with me. Celebrating Christmas together, etc.

12. Do you ask enough questions, or do you settle for what you know?
I usually settle for what I know, or hope to figure out things on my own.  Unless I need some crucial information, I need to ask until I am satisfied with the response.

13. Do you celebrate the things you do have?
I celebrate when I newly own something, like a new DVD, or new box of chocolates, or things I recently buy. But maybe I should celebrate things I have had.


14. When it's all said and done, will you have more said than done? 
Hmmm I'm not sure about this question. Maybe yes to more said than done, because it's easier to say things than actually do it you know. It's easy to say like, I am going skydiving tomorrow. That's being said. But to be tomorrow and actually do it, it's likely if you have the drive or have the plans to do it, but it's most likely that you won't skydive the next day after you said you were going to. There's a lot to be said than to be done.


15. When was the last time you tried something new?
Maybe today, when I tried a new perfume from Sephora. 


16. Which activities makes you lose track of time? 
Whenever or whatever I am doing when I am with Jacob. Times passes by so quickly, next thing I know, he has to leave to go home. Also, when I go to Chapters or Indigo I feel like I can spend hours and hours and hours reading or taking look at books. There are just so many things in that bookstore! I may add as well, spending time on StumbleUpon website =_= makes me go to bed super late


17. If you could do it all over again, what would you change?
Well, I will be using going to university as "it". If I could do university all over again, I would do many things differently. First, I should have taken a program that will train me more to get jobs. I would have gone to college and take like Creative Advertising at Seneca or Graphic Design, something that will help me learn the tools when it comes to doing and finding a job. I would have also befriend many teachers because they can give me guidance and recommendations when I am off school. I would also try not to be so stupid and make careless mistakes like I did when I started uni. I would as well, be myself instead of giving "an image" to everybody so people would label me a certain way. it's so much better to be just me.

18. What is the difference between living and existing?
Existing is just being alive, taking physical space in this planet. Living, is like doing things that make you happy, or just doing things, either good or bad, so you have the experience of something. Existing is like laying on bed all day and eating when meal time comes. Exisiting is: meeting new friends, going scuba diving, traveling to places, fall from learning how to skateboard, trying new types of wine, doing something stupid you regretted later, getting together with friends and family and laugh, etc etc.  

19. If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long will you allow that person to be your friend?
They say sometimes that you are your worst enemy. But I think that you are your best friend. Think about it. nobody understands things the way you do. So imagine if you ha a friend who think the same way as you do, then you will never have to disagree with yourself. however, problem comes when both of you are wrong and one of you fail to see things differently. Sometimes you just need someone to give you a different point of view, or a different opinion, even maybe suggest something different that makes more sense or make things easier for you. But if I had someone that speaks the same way as I speak to myself, then I could consider that person a very close friend. Soulmate maybe.

20. If you had to teach something, what would you teach?
I would like to teach people how to be optimistic and happy. Looks like people need to learn that today. It is so frustrating when people are being pessimistic about everything, when they are always downers and when you are with them seems like the world is gonna end soon. I would like to teach that kind of people how to appreciate the little things in life, be satisfied to what we have, that problems are gonna be solved in one way or another, and that there is no point of being pessimistic about things. Life is wonderful and everything happens for a reason.

21. Time or money?
Hmmm, another tricky question. I think both will bring joy to people. With time, people can achieve more, or spend more with friends and family. With money you can buy things that make you happy. My mom always told me that time is gold. It is true in the way that every minute that you waste you are not getting it back. Time goes by quickly, and before you know it, you are already 80 years old. We must learn to save time because it allows us to do more. However, with money, you won't be stressed about being broke, can't afford life, which are very very sad and horrible feelings. It's kinda ironic how when you don't have money, you have so much time in your life. When you have a lot of money, most likely you don't have the time for yourself or for your loved ones. Time is precious, but money is security. I'm going with money today.

22. Are you aware that someone has it worse than you?
I am completely aware of that. Almost everyday I think about how greateful I am that I am alive, have a family, have some money, healthy, have a roof to live under, have food, have two legs, two seeing eyes, functional lugs, etc etc. I can just imagine about other people who are way less fortunate than I am. That is why I appreciate the little things more and I don't complain about much. I know I am very lucky to have what I have got. So thankful.


23. What makes you smile?
Funny things, the thought of someone that loves me and cares about me, when things go my way, when people are being super nice to me, penguins, dessserts, good surprises, finding something that I have forgotten about or that I have been searching for long, cute songs, when the day is sunny. Among other things. 


24. What would you regret not fully doing, being, or having in your life?
I would regret not fully putting my efforts to find a job, not being myself, and not having friends and family.

Remembering 9/11

Today marks the 10th anniversary of 9/11, or the attacks at the World Trade Center. It is an event that maked the history of the world as a tragedy, that will be remembered for many years if not forever.

The terrorist attack was an action of hate. Hate for the country. Hate for the culture. Hate for the politics. And the result was the death of thousands of innocent lives. The victims were husbands, wives, sons, daughters, fathers, cousins, friends, nephews, nieces, grandaughters, grandsons, grandfathers and grandmothers. For each life taken away, there are a hundred of sufferers. Including those families of the suicide bombers.

It is an event that brings all US citizens together, as well as people from around the world who has been affected by the event in one way or another, including me.

Therefore, today, I remember those lives lost 10 years ago. Condolences for their families and friends. I wish them strenght to bare their loss and to move on with their lives.

Gemini Bunny Loses Her Twin

Today, my best friend left the house to go back home in Terrace Bay. I always saw my friend as my gemini twin because we are so alike, though not as much since I got into a relationship.

Her and I were very free-willed people, taking life easy and enjoy it as much as we can. Loving life as it is. Enjoy being ourselves. Smiling every chance we get. We both had similar ideals about life in general. We also like to stay away from drama as much as possible.

I have enjoyed my time this year living with her. During the summer we used to sit outside the house, get some sun and looking at people passing by. We also walked to the fountain on campus, talk, and look at people passing by. We shared lots of gossips together. Sometimes we go into each other's room just to talk. I went to her room because I find myself being bored or needing to get some social life. I go to her because I feel like I can talk to her about anything and we always have something to talk about. we have a good trust on each other because I would tell her things I would not tell anyone, or she will tell me things she won't tell anyone. She always came to me and hug me - and sometimes she jokingly try to snap my bra or have unappropriate lesbian jokes- We planned couple events together, like Hoops Night.

When she left today, I felt like a piece of me is leaving me. Who am i going to sit outside with? Who am I going to complain about people to? Whose singing will I hear? Who am I going to tell gossips to? Who am i going to do the volcaaaanooooo high five? Who do I giggle with? Who is going to high five me about evil things? There are certainly people I can do this with, and still some other friends who are still here, but it's not going to be the same.

With the surprise party another friend threw her and how she was crying when she left, I suddenly realized how much her friendship means to her, and how valuable friendships are. When she cried she made us all cry. Some people are amazing friends. Sometimes I wish I had more friends like them. It makes me wonder if I have friends like that, who would throw me a surprise good-bye party and be sad when I leave. But this is usually not the case because I am always the one that stays the last. It is like when I was in residence and I had to see everyone leave and I had to stay until the very last date.

Times like this makes me think that I need to take friendship more seriously, not that I don't, but I need to build stronger bonds with people and make really good friends. Because I really don't wanna end up like my mother who barely has any friends and spends the entire time in the house with my dad. I really wants friends I can rely on. Good friends I feel comfortable talking about things. Like I saw on television on a show called Boss in disguise or something, "build relationships, then do business". I need to build relationships with people. Because it is just going to benefit me, in every single way.

It is indeed really sad to see people move away. Today two of my friends moved out of the house, the two I get along the best with. But even more than that, a whole bunch of people I know are moving on with their lives. Lots of them are graduating and going on separate ways in life. My best friend is going home and pursuit her career in theatre. Couple friends are moving to downtown to live. Some are going back home after graduation. Others are going to college or graduate school. It is like high school again, when all your friends are leaving to do different things and going to different schools. No wonder it is so hard to keep a friendship. Once bonds are made, it's meant to be broken. Because honestly, when people move, they change. People might stayn in touch with you for the first couple months, but it is just going to die away slowly and then you don't get in touch with them. Been there, done that. That is probably why I don't take friendships so seriously. Because I don't wanna get hurt when they leave me. But I guess that's part of life.

Losing friendships means you gain new ones, but not forgetting old ones. The best thing to do is do my best to create great bonds with people, at least temporary, but they are going to be strong bonds.

What do you wanna do before you die

The other day I sat down to watch this show on MTV called The Buried Life. It's a show about four young guys in their twenties that go around the US trying to accomplish things they wanna do in their list of things to do before they die. Here's the list they did. I found this show very inspiring, especially with the things they do in the show. The very first episode I saw was when they were trying to get to play basketball with Obama. They talked to lots of people on the streets, congressmen, secretaries, commisioners, radio show, etc. to try to get the word to Obama. Sadly, they were given the notice that Obama is a very busy man and has a very tight schedule. Sometimes, things can seem impossible, but doesnt mean that you cant get any close to it. After all, its the intention and the effort that really count. Makes me think that you have to really try your best if you want to archieve something. You might not be successful sometimes, but other times, you can definetly archieve what you want.

What was the most inspiring was that, sometimes they go on the streets and ask people what they wanna do before they die. And they pick one of those answers to make them reality. Like that blind guy who used to ride horses when little, and now he hasnt ridden a horse in more than 20 years. So the guys got him to ride a horse again. And the feeling was really overwhelming to see the guy's face when he rode the horse, and how much that meant for him. Another was these two guys who wanted to reunite with their high school friends and hang out by the lake they used to. Well they got to, and the guys realized that no matter how much time goes by, some things always stay the same. And the third example is when this guy wanted to meet his father he never met, and they finally did in the end.

It's just a really really inspiring show. It warms my heart that there are goodness in people, like these 4 guys who help these people accomplish what they want. In return, other people help them to do what they want. The whole idea about this is to connect with people, get your word out there and do they best you can. I am really glad that this kind of reality tv show exists where people are actually doing something useful, unlike some crappy shows out there that has no purpose. It also makes people reflect about their lives and see how much there is to life than sitting on your desk all day working or studying. Ambitions are what keep you motivated about life and keep your mind alive.

What do YOU wanna do before you die?

Here is my list of things I wanna do before I die (that I haven't accomplished yet):

• Go to Europe
• Go skydiving
• Ride a gondola in Venice
• Attend a major sporting event: the Super Bowl, the Olympics, the U.S. Open
• Swim with dolphins
• Go skippy-dipping
• Be an extra in a film or music video
• Go to an Ellen Degenres show
• Pet a kangaroo
• Go on a roadtrip across a country
• Be in a canoe on a lake
• Stay awake for 24 hrs
• Celebrate New Years in Times Square
• Go to Rio de Janeiro Carnival
• Go to the Great Canyon
• Grow a garden
• Learn how to surf
• Go on a blind date
• Donate money to Skate4Cancer
• Play casino in Las Vegas
• Catch a fish while fishing
• Graduate from university
• Go to the top of the Statue of Liberty
• Learn to bartend
• Get married at the beach
• Watch a Cirque Du Soleil show
• Visit the Great Wall of China
• Go on a country festival
• Have a campfire by the beach playing guitar and eating s'mores
  

That's all I got for now. It's very likely that it's gonna get longer than this.